what is it with human phrases such as this that have begun to creep into my writing? If I were to truly run into someone as the statement implies, there would have been certain injury with one or both parties involved. How confusing and ultimately misleading.
Master Rynivor and I chanced upon each other earlier this evening. I assisted him with some work in culling the local population of ravagers on Azuremyst--an almost clockwork requirement with my brethren that remain behind and struggle to find some way to soothe the land their arrival wrought on once-kal'dorei grounds.
To my utter surprise, Master Ryutan then sought me out not but several hours prior. It was most enjoyable to speak with him once more. Whatever melancholy he suffered in our last conversation seemed absence tonight, or he merely hid it better this time.
Our conversation this time left me feeling unsettled, however, a mixed sense given my genuine enjoyment of sharing time with him. He asked many questions, which I never mind, least of all from him, but many of which left me feeling as if my answers were somehow judged inadequate.
He wished to know why I am the way I am.
He told me he believes that I have no drive or ambition, and that I have no will of my own, despite my own protests--is disagreement not an example in and of itself in self-aware will? It was also said to me that I am afraid of responsibility, and so remain passive in my deference to others.
I have many responsibilities. He did not pursue the topic further, claiming it was late and he needed to return home. I wished him safe travels, but am now left with confused thoughts that refuse to quiet.
At least there is no accompanying headache for now. I still have much work to do for the Crusade before I turn in for the night.
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